Entropy

It's the fifth week of the semester, work is nonstop. I'm learning something that spans several aspects of my life simultaneously in multiple ways, and it has to do with Entropy.

Entropy is the basis of the second law of thermodynamics. The law states that without the constant input of energy, all things fall toward a state of ultimate randomness. Of chaos. Of entropy.
All of what we know as Life is essentially an uphill battle, to maintain our "organized" states of being. We are fighting entropy, with every cell in our body, with every metabolite, and at the same time, we have evolved to incorporate the very same randomness that could pull us apart- we fight it, and on the other hand, we use it, to hold ourselves together. It's a strange thing.

I feel like my personal life is just a fractal of this same idea. I'm constantly struggling to hold everything together, and one day (one moment, even) of letting it go would unravel all my efforts faster than I could ever wind them back up.
This semester, I'm putting all of my energy into maintaining my state of struggle. Isn't that odd? But at the same time, it is also this same chaos that holds me together. I know it. I've felt it for a long time; you cannot have one without the other. All we are, bunches of energy. Vibrations, entropy, maintenance of our current state, growth, chaos.
We're amazing, you know. All of this, whatever it is.

Anyway. Somehow, this was supposed to relate to my need, tonight, to let go of my to-do lists, and barf out some words. I want to write. I want to be creative. I want to learn. Experience. Live.
And I am. This isn't one of those 'poor me and my struggles' diatribes, but my acknowledgement of the part of myself that I've been ignoring.
And what am I going to do? I'm going to start writing again. Reconnect. (no internet pun intended)
I'm going to start putting things up here. Maybe recipes, maybe poetry, maybe pictures, maybe ideas, philosophy, politics....who knows. But this is me. This is the next chapter. It's time to open our 'books', people. Me. All of us. Open your stories and join the journey.

Hello.